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Sunday, May 21, 2006

i wonder if qualifications really affect ones thinking n doing. as in being in different systems of education, do we end up with different mindset? someone suggested this to me..
hmm.. but all along i thought it was the different experiences we have in life tt moulds us..
now that i think about it, i think there is a kind of affinity to stick close to ppl with similar qualifications for me. its not like a jc vs poly kind of thing. but we will have abt the same reactions to thing (+ or- 1, haha). its hard for me to put it into words especially when i am still feeling dizzy right now. (will explain later). but just wanna type out some of my thoughts..
all these r bcoz i have been hanging out with someone( A) quite alot recently. i was shocked and at the same time saddened but how much A has changed over the time. i still couldn't believe it but all the actions of A tells me that A is no longer the A that i know. A has become a more n more complex person, and wat i dislike the most is the inconsistency in what A claims to be A's beliefs. so sickening la..
is it environment? is it $? is it friends?
hmm.... at first i struggled with myself when i still wasn't sure of what kind of person A is now. i get influenced easily u see. but now tt i m quite clear. i become more sure of myself, being more ME. and keep remind myself nv to be like A. u see, its like for eg, ur fren like to smoke, and u will get influence somehow right. but if its like u r able to zoom out, u see a greater picture, u actually will become stronger.( i wonder if u guys do experience things like that or not)
i m so thankful n satisfied with what i have. now that A is having a 'buffet', i m thankful i found my favourite 'dish' , i dun wan to look further in hopes of getting 'food' which is 'organic', 'healthy', 'fine quality' and etc. materialistic is what ppl called it.
perhaps just like what someone told me. having higher qualifications makes us to be more able to be independent, able to carve a niche out ourselves. thus A needs better 'food' in order to secure her 'health' ba.
haha, now i think its abit funny to use 'food' n other analogy. but i dun wish to say out the real subject.
too bad if it bores u down, since its my blog :) my realisation n reflection blog :)

diary time!
went nus with darius n mindy for sci talk by the fos dean. i really dunno what course i wanna take right now. dun wish to take up life sci leh..
sci now that i understand, is a foundation. i can do better than accountants n pharmacist if i further my studies. watch me shine ya! its all abt how much hard work i m willing to put in.
today, went sailing on a yacht. it is owned by my cousin's fren's fren. gathered at republic of singapore yacht club. quite nice. like a resort, have arcade, steam room, rooms, lounge, cafe, nice swimming pool. but i din explore. coz main aim is to go sailing.
went sister island first. sea breeze was quite strong but nice feeling. picnic by the shore. and we spotted a aggressive female monkey which climbed up the tree above us and wldn't go away even when the guys try to chase it away, some more show its very very sharp fangs, i think can win the vampires. it even pee on top on the tree and the urine flow straight down to the ground, and we were drinking tea at then ( din drop in of coz)? but so er xin right? den we shifted to a hut, where the monkeys beaome helpless, coz no tree to climb n aim. haha..
moved on to pulau hantu. but i din step onto the land itself, just stay on board n chill out. so sad tt i din get a chance to go kayaking, coz i dunno how to do it, so dun dare to go out the sea alone. what if i get drifted far away n can't make my way back right? right now, i feel abit dizzy, like the chair is floating up n down. haha..
though quite sian, but its a nice wkend spent still :)

munched @ 11:09 PM