standing too tall ;

Tuesday, June 27, 2006

i m falling, once again..
frens asked whether i had gone for medical check-up
frens asked if i m joining any camp
there are so many activities n events going on right now
there are some that i ought to sign up
but i can't rmb any important date
i dun feel the excitement of stepping into uni. this is damn sad. i used to think going uni must be damn cool. especially now that i m going to my dream sch. it must be damn fun. PAST
i dun look forward ANYMORE
i was wondering why m i giving such a bad attitude. i shld be responsible for my own studies i know.. there are some things that r only ONCE in a lifetime. i shld do it well.
i think n i think. i know.
though i already accept the fact that i m going science. my heart din accept it. passion is not there.
i pity ppl who chose a course bcoz of career prospect, bcoz of pressure, bcoz of money, bcoz they juz wan to get a degree.
but ain i doing the same thing? just tt i dun get to choose??
i hope someone up there in heaven will listen to me right now. grant me my wish. let me serve people. let me help people. let me save people. let me pursue my dream.

will someone lend me a shoulder to cry on? just for awhile..
so tired of role acting. tired of being the good n the bad person myself. tired of comforting myself. tired of thinking reasons why i shld still feel glad. tired of letting my heart think i m OK. dun wanna hide, dun wanna avoid anymore, can?
i so hope that someone understand all these, or someone is feeling the same too..
but i m hoping more that this is just temporary, i will achieve wat i wan in future...

munched @ 12:44 PM