standing too tall ;

Sunday, October 28, 2007

i feel like this - !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
after reading her post.

i feel like as if i missed out a very important part and thing to do.
things have changed sooo much, like 180deg when we were already like 90deg close to target.
now life is gonna be boring until...

and another piece of not so good news that i received today also made me go like this- !!!!!!!!

whats happening man seriously, walau.. i can't believe all these lah, we are only getting further and further away... and only shit keep coming nearer and nearer... the same old shit somemore! nonono, i rather not have any....

never mind if you don't understand my shitty language, because i really just feel like that lah now !@#%@#(*&@!%$!@
i must do something to the situation now, but i don't know how, maybe i should just give up and move on la.

anyway, had a rather busy week (as usual). don't wanna go into details lah.
just wanna mention that had our own Oktoberfest fiesta today, was quite a success, though members are not very responsive and we didn't break even, but for those who went, i believe you would think the price you paid is very worth-while. for me, i don't wanna touch sausages and beer for at least 2 weeks i think! i hope next year we would be able to make it a bigger scale event!

funny, when i reached home late like 10plus after tuition, I feel that i don't have enough time for my own work and wish that i didn't have to give tuition. but when i finally have the chance to go home straight away after school, i feel very bored and there is no motivation for me to study hard, maybe coz i know i have more than enough time?

funny, every morning i wake up, i experience short term memory lost. i have trouble remembering which day it is, and start getting anxious about recalling which day is it and what i have to do on that day. that kind of feeling seriously sucks, so damn afraid that i might mistaken a weekday for a weekend and just continue sleeping.. is that what you call stress? but how come i don't really feel that i am stressed?

munched @ 12:37 AM